17 June 06

Hello everyone

today i won 2 tradess

1st is DBS
2nd is at night news play.

i have very long time never win so many pips already.
even though i am mostly winning now.
my hands are still shaking as i am typing this.
this is because i had just entered a trade.
i feel i had not only lost some of my capital, but i had also lost my guts.
as the saying goes, lose money is ok, lose your guts and you are out of the game.
i am not sure y, even though i am winning i am scare
maybe i lost so much until i lost my balls, maybe i am not confident of my own judgement and system anymore. maybe i am just afraid to lose. i also dunno why.
phew ... feeling better now becoz my trade is winning.
can feel hands dun shake, heart dun beat so fast, dun feel so cold anymore.